i know i sucks big time . i dnt knoe any sgl thing abt you . i dont understnd my own bf . whts this siah . why am i so ego . why cant i cntrol my anger . why cant i stop saying i wan break ? im just so stupid and selfish tht i nvr think abt others feeling . Seems like u prefer ur past . being with me is a suffering moment right ? i regret for wht iv say . but i do tht becus i knoe u will always get hurt being with me . i hurt you , i hate myself alot . I do stupid things . now , i feel like dying . im sorry .! but deep inside i love you . i really do . i just cant see u hurt . Seeing u get hurt is the most sad thing for me . i nvr sleep for a day . thnks to my stupidness . IM done :'(

I got ntg else to say but to say i love yusri so much . yesterday was my annivasary but didnt get to celebrate like how we use too because it was hari raya haji . Baby and myself was busy with our own family . So yeah :) saturday bby coming to my crib . Gonna cook for him curry chicken . Cause i think is his fav dish ? ahha ! jyeahp .like real uhs . ku pack pack uhs . :D Although we always quarrel we still love each other right hunn ? aye aye . !~ cant say more . cus im starting to talk crap . till here than . bye . ! oh yeah i miss my fren :(

Hello(: As you know this bestf of mine went to Sec 3 camp today till Wednesday. So, i will help her to update her Onsugar for this 3days:D

I hope you guys wont get bored by reading this cos i really do not know what to write at her onsugar. HAHA.

iika sure will be back ALIVE after the camp. She would probably enjoy herself much there.

So much that she would think about yusri at night(:

Confirm half dead gile. 3 hari tak contact baby die^^

Yusri, she will miss you punye. HAHA.

Alright, i will update her onsugar again when im free.

Love, iraa:D

And yes im back , but blog seem to be boring liao . I rather have a diary . (: erm anw , my result was fine . i failed one subject only . School have not ended yet . We still got extended programme . Went to lavander with fitri to do ic thingy . hmm . Sister laugh at me when i told her why i quarrel with love . And its about me . I was too tired and sleepy tht i msg bby out of the topic and he misunderstood it . nvm i nvr blame you :) trying my best to settle in the morning but everything turn out worst . I cant think wht to do now to make it get better cause i scrd i will make it turn more worst . hmm . i just want u to knoe im scrd getting treated like fren by you cus it makes me feel u dnt love me alrdy . U knoe how much i love u rite . i hope u knoe wht best for us . :) being with you alrdy makes me happy . I dnt need u to do anything to make me happy and stuff . i just need a sincere love from you tht will nvr fade away . hmm . think back wht we gone through , it make us learn alot of things kn bby . ? we learn frm it aye . im done .

hey people

PAst few days sleep nanny house as i end school late because of AEM dance . Very tiring mann ~ this saturday gonna be the last day of aem thingy . But still next year we have to run the achievers day . Oh watever lah . Today perform for lunch time concert . My school principle say we did a good job and they enjoy our performance . BUt to me our dance was not tht good . We took abt 3 days ? to complete the whole dance . so yeahp ~!

oh yeah , i forgot to tell my annivasary i had bbq with bby with 3 of his frens . Awesome ! i ate alot but sadly i sleep alot too . gahahah~ cus im so tired ! And im sorry love . well i got to admit that yusri was the best boyfriend i ever had . Nvr did i do such thing for my annivasary with my ex before seyh . I bet alot of ppl out there knows my bf well . With his suckish attitude last time . BUt that was the past ! now he change . I knoe its hard for ppl and even myself to believe it . But if i love him i have to believe in him right ? but theres a problem with me . And tht is my trust towards him . I knoe the feeling sucks when tht person accuse you or dnt have the trust in u already . But tht doesnt mean i wont trust in whatever u do sayang (: i will (:sometimes i felt tht im so like wtf . i know i make hell lots of mistake to you and i knoe your tired of my sorry . BUt i hope ur not tired in loving me . i knoe u cant feel my love in whatever i do . But if u were to look into my heart than u will knoe how much i love you . Actually..., theres still some ppl out there asking me if love had change or not . Wether i can make it with him or not . Now let me tell you guys . I knoe and im confident tht im the one who can change him . infact he had change . So ppl dont bother to ask wether Yusri is still playboy or what so ever again . cus he will nvr be tht again . So my post is to tell evryone that my baby is a good guy now (: if his not than im not too (: And love dnt worry u trust me kan ? so trust me u will have my trust fully back (: im serious . EVen now im starting to trust in whatevr u do (: and whtever im saying here is not pack pack or packeron eh b . it came frm my heart u ass ! haha .

kay im done ! babby our new photos i will uploas soon aye dear once im in good terms with brother (: